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it's about a month that I haven't post anything hereyou know

finally you become tired of saying without being heared

only Haj Mahmoud read hereand it's about weeks that he have gone from bayan

I miss all of my blogger friends like matarsak ,haj Mahmoud ,Mr and Mrs engineer

by writing the first two lines I mean s.th else about my personal life but I suddenly remember that friends

finally you become tired then you become silence

pains chang you from whom you are!once you see there is nothing special in your life,everything are the same!then you don't understand the meaning of enjoy,like,loveyou do because you know you have to do in order not to be weak,not to be hurt more than you were
life cruelly made you to face up with your loneliness to see,there is no body nobodyand when you hardly break when you fail when even breathing become painful for you,everyone points their fingers to you!even those you love more than your life!everyone every time add insult to your injury!they even laugh at your pain
once you find that nothing will surprise you.you see there is a long time that you haven't laugh reallyloudly!along time that you even don't cryjust a habitual smiles and unwanted tears
once you find yourself that no "I love you"no appluse or admiring won't make you happy,or make any sense!just a bitter smile and feel being exaggerated!nothing won't make you feel like walking on air.and then you breath painfully and say:"hey tank you,that's enough!"just complaints an unkindness of those you love makes you more brokenmore tiredtoo tired!

since there is no enthusiast in you I prefer to close comments:)may be it's good I say whatever I wantI shouldn't worry about annoying anyone

Hi!

 of course one of the hard sweet parts of learning English is grammar,it can be even disgusting:|it depends!

in present perfect we learn that we can use present perfect to express a complete action in past!which effects or signs are still noticeable!let me give you an example!

I cant play with you,because I have broken my leg last week!

you see that's a finished action!but it's affect are still noticeable!

last post I told you" I'm studying a book named'' writing with confidence.but I bought it last year:|'' something like this! but can I say I've bought it last year??and it's sign or effect is studying this book after one year,what do you think?!

collocation part:
we say:
the vehicle light(not lamp):head light,brake light,parking light
traffic light(not lamp)
light a cigarette

we say:
the light is off/out.
the light comes/goes out
turn/switch/put   on/off/out  the light

+suddenly I remember a song:hit the light let the music moves you tonight:D

it's along time that I haven't write here I'm so sorry,forgive me.

actually I started to study a book named(writing with confidence)to be honest I bought it last year:|yeah,well may be I will tell you about that

but now let me tell you something about some verbs like:put on and some of its common usage!

we use the verb put on to expressA wearing:1clothes 2shoes 3glasses 4cream or anything  else on your skin and also B to express having influence on s.th or s.b C  to pretend s.th(he put on brave face,but he is not( D for music(put on music( E also for adding weight F we use  put on to express the money yourisk with

 and two word:summery and summary do not make mistake while using them.

I promise to be active-_-

good luck

First, happy new year

can I ask you about your holiday?how is it?

I have too many things to do,more than a hundred of pages of morphology,believe me it is disgusting:|but I haven't read even one page, since the beginning of this term. a strong disappointment stops me, actually stops my enthusiasm I should push my self

I think I've told you,or not 

last term I tried hard and all of my grades were up to 17 to 20, but one of my teacher whom I always did best in his class gave me 6,I can't describe you the shock.

even the students around me suprised and told the teacher  "it is impossible, if Samira fail,who .else can pass?" the teacher looked at me with suspicion, and I freezed

he said I will check your essay again and then he said you dont have motivator in your essay and as you said you are supposed to write much better and with alot of favor 10

that was terrible

don't you think being disappointment for some days is my right?if you were in my shoes,

and these  days I've been studying a book about technical analysis of the financial markets

it makes me tired,really

specifically because I cant get it, I mean I understand what it say, but I can't realize what is it for:/

my brain get really tired

wish me finish it soon

it's about a month that I haven't post anything hereyou know

finally you become tired of saying without being heared

only Haj Mahmoud read hereand it's about weeks that he has gone from bayan

I miss all of my blogger friends like matarsak ,haj Mahmoud ,Mr and Mrs engineer

by writing the first two lines I mean s.th else about my personal life but I suddenly remember that friends

finally you become tired then you become silence

funnytwo terms ago I prepare a lecture for our oral reproduction class. and I prepared it by listening to too many videos and books. I had to memorize it because we shouldn't pick any a kind off note or paper.

this one was recorded the night I gathered all information I wanted.  just for my self for listening and memorizingI  don't know why my voice were like thatand sometimes I scream

دریافت

I don't know what should I sayI am becoming such a complete introvert person

kind of bored, no matter whom I am talking with it makes me tired and bored

these days as much as I look around myself, people their happiness their anger their  love even their garbage thoughts, it makes me more and more tired and I dont know what am I going to do,for what? I love my blog but I close it,I don't want to write to see it for some days actually I dont want to be here , I wish  I can go far a way from everything,but I still can't

and let me tell you about what had happenednot complete but a brief conclusion of what had happened one day in your life you find out there is no feeling remains in your heartthat day your heart wont start beating so fast for any lovely word, you wont make angry of any hate r word one day your heart is being so much repress and squash,that no longer  desire or wish for any thing that much!

one day you become so logic to realize, you shouldn't beg God for what your heart want, but you just ask him to help you and let you forget a will a desire that wont fulfil and never become yours,for your poor heart 

I don't know why parents insist on talking about others. specially mothers. God damnother girls other girlsyou know all of the mothers ate kind,they miss you , they love you but sometimes hard to tolerate:|

sometimes I say to myself, let's show them the real other girls, and be one of them.

last week that my mother was on travel,  although I had coaching exams I cooked, cleaned washed the dishes, and there was no mess in our home, and actually they see I can handle it very goodbut she always love me to cooked and always say look at Fazeleh she never let her mother to touch anything and always cook,but tou I worry about you after marriage (actually she is 5years younger than me:/what the hell!) I never wana be like them because there is nothing in their damn minds except marriage and imaginary life with their disgusting love (love?dMn say BF) I can't even understand how they could have these many loves? even tolerating these different people telling "I love you"?not even kiss!I can't even tolerate a boy coming to our house looking me with love as his future wife that moment I wanna kill myself of seeing these wrong people

still I can't understand mothers

may be I should be exactly like her, always cooking and washing but stop doing my regular exercises  stop teaching because I'm tired not studying this subject it's hard!'not in this famous university it make me feel stressful and going to a kind of university without entrance exam and finally I got depressed and stressful ,and make them take me to hospital 2 times. a week during exams, want them to take me everywhere because Im tired I can't walk! caall them to come and bring me home because I think I need some rest! and just thinking and praying for getting married to a . boy, force them to buy me too many clothes and never wearing repeated clothes in any weddingso then why shouldn't I cooke every time??

if I wanna tell you about sweet parts ob being teacher I can mention some of the funny scenes that makes me smile and laugh:

when I took exam I ask them to write from number 1 to 10,one of my sweetest student that I really love him write:

1,2,10

my little boy misunderstood what I said 

one of my classes is early in morning! and sometimes they are all feel sleep at the beginning but I make them shout

two of them never pay attention to my orders when I ask them to show numbers with their hands specially Mehdi . he doesn't ,even when I gaze at his eyes and ask him:show me your hands

but he just move his head to say no and look at me the way that he wants to say why you ask me such a stupid thing:|

one day I wanted to teach them a song. before that as I was already know that boys knap their sits hardly instead of light tap

so I showed them and said:tap 

and then showed them my fist and I told them no BANG,BANG! 

but suddenly they started singing:

سیگاری سیگاری بنگ بنگ:|

 today that young teacher that always try to help me with teaching came .sometimes he come and observe my classes and give me some advice, he has too many experiences of teaching and he even borrowed me his own flash cards. As I couldn't work with the speaker i gave it to him with my cellphone and ask him for a favor, to run that I myself continued reviewing previous lessons

I always listen to the music with my cellphone on the way to class

as he connected the speaker via Bluetooth it started:

اروم اروم اروم،میره دل من از دستهمه چی قشنگع اخه

I saw him shocked trying to stop thathis face was really funnyand just saying I'm sorry im sorrypoor him

Me:hi,how are you? I call you for a favor, you were talking about good sociologist. could you please send me her phone number?

friend: sure, but first tell me what are you going to tell her

forget about that+

come on, we are friends I've not seen you for a month. what's happened?tell me_

forget about that, may be another time,just send me her phone number, please+

okay_

I'm too tiredmy mind is totally busy tomorrow I have Pilates exam, on Saturday I wanna meet a sociologist Sunday a midterm and Monday presentation

Wednesday audio visual translation class and I am supposed to talk instead of the first girl in the film of "me before you" and you.that completely occupied .my mind my hear my soul

  ahh